To say I'm not disgusted with myself would be a lie. To say that I haven't tried very hard wouldn't be too much of a lie. Yes, it's been a rough year. Yes, there is stuff that makes it hard. But, when I looked at myself- I have to take ownership. I did this with a little help from things outside my control. I know I'm a stress eater, my husband feeds that. I need to be stronger and I told him I need him to be stronger for me. I'm worried about my health. My blood pressure is crazy. I don't want meds, and I've given myself a March deadline before I go to the doctor for it.