Weigh In 4/2011

And it's a loss.  Again!!!  I hope the streak continues!

Hit the road Jack... errrr Frog family

Our family is moving back to Idaho- but not the Boise area like before.  This time it's Twin Falls.  My husband grew up there, I've spent a lot of time there, and all 3 of us are very excited!!  It just came up as a possibility a little over a week ago. Friday he went on 5 interviews, and he picked this one.  He leaves this coming weekend, with us to follow as quickly as we can.

I'm a believe in things happening for a reason.  I know that this is an answer to our prayers and to my sanity levels.  Montana is beautiful-- but I miss being in a city.  3,000 is a number for students enrolled in a high school, not a town!  *wink*wink*

So, I maybe be hit and miss-- but I expect to reveal a lot more exciting stuff once we get settled!  We are in for a ride this spring!

The high school weight room

It's evil.  We went up yesterday after school and I think I left my shoulders & back muscles up there.  I was so red faced about my lack of strength.  But, you gotta start somewhere, and I'm starting.  I had the same sensation in there that I did crossing my first 5K.  When I was dead last.  (Who am I kidding, I've always finished dead last!)  People cheering and hollering for me.  Felt like I was a spectacle.  I'm more of a loner when I lug my fat cells into battle. 

The room and I have a standing date for Tuesday & Thursday.  Onstanding.

The numbers say...

A loss of 2.4 pounds. 
Two thumbs.
I seriously need a toe paint job.

Feeling quite blah & random.

I'm back in my workout groove.  It's amazing (horrifying) that after just 4 weeks off, I am so out of shape.  I was so THERE.  I didn't feel fat, and completely ridiculous while shaking my hips, belly dancing, and pretending I could be Shakira during Wakka Wakka.

Tonight, in a smaller class, I felt just that way.  I'm 4 classes "back" and tonight the class was filled with super dancers and athletes.  I tried to hide in my back corner... but that didn't work during one Michael Jackson song... we had to turn, I couldn't figure out the foot work.  For 12 LOOOONG counts I was staring at them while they wiggled staring at me.

I cried on the way home.  Pretty pathetic.  I almost came home and ate.  A lot.  But I didn't.   I filled a glass with ice, poured in some crystal light pink lemonade, and took a super hot shower.  I put on fuzzy jammies, and started watching the new season of BL on the dvr.  (Have watched bits and pieces, tonight I'm watching it all.)  I promised myself if I ate, it would be a yogurt.  But the drinking is working-- the hunger (stress) has passed.

I want this so bad. 
I want to be healthy.
To not be morbidly obese.
To not be obese.
To be able to finish a 5K in under 40 minutes, instead of the hour.
I want to wear clothes without the "W."
To not look pregnant, because I want to really be pregnant.

Tomorrow is my weigh in day.  I hope I met my 2 pound "self" challenge. 

Wi #2 (BCBS-MT)

I stayed the same.  Did good on my goal- which was to get back to exercising regularly.  the other goal was to lose 2, didn't happen- but my official weigh in is Wednesday with my TOPS group.  The 3rd was to give up soda.  I was doing good until Sunday.  Then I had 2.

Weigh In (Jan 2011)

275.8

Loss of 2.2

BCBS- Montana challenge

We have a school team, with 16 people on it so far!  Today is our first official weigh in for that- even though my weigh in is on Wednesday's, I will be weighing on Monday for this.  So what to do, take a picture of my weigh in both times... or keep it to Wednesday's...

I think I'll keep it to Wednesday's-- don't want to have zillions of pictures of my feet/scale on here all the time.  Certainly not each time I end up posting either!!  I'd scare off the 2 people who read me. 

This morning:  275.4  Which is a loss from my first weigh in on the challenge, 278.

My BMI:  40.67
Morbidly Obese.
But f I get rid of .68 I will just be obese.  That's my next week goal...
Made me cry/gasp a bit to read that number.
More than the scale.

I've got scary pictures to upload too.  Crazy hair didn't help-- but it made me feel a little better.

Welcome 2011, bah to 2010.

2010 was not the year for me, or for our family.  So much happening with a major lay off for my husband.  Fighting the banks and doing 110% of everything we could think of to keep our home and deciding in November we just can't do it... Sickness, thankfully the lump on my husbands head was not cancerous (I was seriously scared- he has family history of brain cancer, his father died from it's 3rd attack.)  I could go on and on, but instead I bid it a good, swift kick in the pants as I watched it go bye-bye last night.

This morning I woke up sick to my stomach- it's been happening for the last 2 weeks.  In the back of my mind I wondered if it could be "it."  Kinda funny since of course "it" would happen while we were not in any position (me) emotionally for "it" to come.  So this morning I did a POAS and it was single lined.  It was a huge relief, but also depressing.  I also know that it's possible to be too early to know anything-- so I'll wrap my head around it.

2011 is gonna be a good year.  I've made a couple goals for myself.  Last year I didn't make any.  While some people scoff at it-- I really think I need to have that goal and be mindful of it to keep it.  So this year, I'm putting it out there.

1.  I will make a conscience choice to eat breakfast every morning.  Whether it's just a slice of toast & PB, or cereal, or whatever- I will "eat" something.  (This is huge for me, everyone who knows me KNOWS I do not eat until around noonish most days.)

2.  I will participate in at least 5 races (1 mile, 5K, 10K, etc) this calendar year.  If I can't (because of $$$) I will set a date and time and have my own race for me.  With someone (son or kid) timing me and making sure I do the right distance.

3.  I will try and eat less from "boxes & cans."  Which, again, is HUGE for me.  Being in Montana means that fresh produce in the winter months (think Sept-May) are crazy $$$$$$$$.  However, I really want to turn over how/what I eat. 

I'm starting today at my highest I can recall... 277 on the scale.  Which means I WAY over ate from my last weigh in, in the tune of 10 pounds.  That's what I get for eating, watching movies and avoiding my Zumba classes.  The only exercise I did was XC skiing on Christmas day- but we came home to a world of food, snacks and drinks.

2011, I have high hopes for you.