Tuesday, June 8, 2010

I don't fit in a chair.

I have always hate sitting next to people in a row of chairs. I try to get an end seat, on the left side, because I'm left handed. I also rather enjoy my personal "bubble space" and use it with my students. It's a running joke about inanimate objects in my classroom needing their bubble space... I guess you'd have to be there to understand- they laugh, I swear.

Any who.

At graduation I was not on the end of a row. I was flagged on both sides with people, and I hated it. I hated it more because I was face to face that I do not fit in those seats, and instead I overlapped, no matter how I tried to rearrange. It was humiliating, and while I was concentrating on the kids walking across the stage, I was also concentrating on where my flab was falling.

Tomorrow is weigh in day. I haven't been on the scale since last week's weigh in. It's almost summer vacation, and I plan on being a driven force while my son spends his summer in Missouri.

I told myself it's going to be like it was the 1st time I did it. That kind of focus.

I wanted that deep down desire-- I need a good reason, a scare reason, and I found it. Never under estimate the power of blunt force facts.


Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

You never know what it's gonna be that pushes you over the edge on this journey... a bad photograph, a random comment, an uncomfortable moment. Use it to fuel a big change in your life. Let it be the impetus for a huge initial push, but understand that motivation like that fades.

You're doing this for a lot of reasons, and most of them are filled with positive energy. You want to live longer, want to feel better, want to feel better about yourself. Dig in for the long haul and work toward your goals, because all the effort and sacrifice is really worth it in the end.

You're gonna forget about that moment with the chair soon enough. Keep the big picture in mind though. There's a better life waiting for you if you have the strength, courage and commitment to make the journey.

Personally, I think you do.

FrogiNater said...

I know there are PLENTY of other reasons.. but this one was a big one... I've never realized it... and I know it didn't just happen. Thanks for your response- I printed it out. :)